How can I ever end this torturing life?

Well, how can you faced the fact that you only get to see your partner 1.5 days per week for 4 consecutive months?  Perhaps some of you can do it with no problems at all but I can't handle and if there's a choice I would die die choose NOT to be in this situation. Working time calling your partner, he says "I'm in a meeting", after work called him and he replied "I still haven't take my shower and after shower I still need to continue with my work". What are all those answers?? FML!! Come on, this is not what I want. I have actually thought about it, if all these sacrifices are for a richer future, I would said I rather not to have a richer future!!!